I have been consuming podcasts for the last 1-2 years like a crazy person. I love them!! So much information, knowledge and entertainment has come from the hours upon hours of listening during runs or my weekday commutes. A few have really stuck with me. Today was The Same 24 Hours episode with Gary John Bishop. He is the author of UnF*ck Yourself: Get out of your Head and Into Your Life. I read the book about a year ago and loved it. One of many things during the podcast that jumped out at me was when he told Meredith Atwood 'you're not a chair. You're not broken'. That spoke volumes to me. Throughout the last 16-18 months, I've felt broken at times. Broken because things didn't work out in my life the way I thought they would or should. Then my thoughts changed to I was broken in some way. Somehow I wasn't good enough. That has rattled around in my head for years. It was the internal dialogue that has gotten me nowhere in a hurry. Just lies I have told myself about my worth. The truth is I am not broken. My life is not broken. Simply put life is just not turning out the way I thought it would. Guess what? It is okay. My life is okay and I am okay. Actually, everything is not just okay, it is really good! Are situations and/or life hard? YES!! But it has always has had it's challenges or hardships. Doing things on my own is very different. I am enjoying it much more than I thought I would. Every day is a new adventure. The peace I feel is refreshing. Is every day kitty cats and rainbows? Hell no!! In the crazy chaotic days, we still have fun and enjoy the moment. With everything including life, this too is temporary.
Gary John Bishop is right. I am not a chair. I am not broken.